Headed home for the Holidays...
Hello again,
I can't believe that the holidays are here already. I don't know if you know this about me but I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS. I have most of my shopping done already and its not even Thanksgiving. That is how much I love the holidays. Tonight I am headed home to Michigan to see my family. It is about a 11 hour drive. My fiance is coming with me for Thanksgiving. I will be staying in Michigan until December 28th. There are so many things coming up both to look forward to and dread.
I look forward to spending time with my family. I look forward to eating tons of great food and playing games. My twin sister is graduating for Nursing school in 20 days (I know this because she has a count down on her myspace.com page and her AIM name). It makes me laugh. I am so proud of her. I think that I want to get a job or volunteer to wrap presents at the mall. How happy would I be if I could wrap presents all day (VERY HAPPY). My sister and I are going to volunteer at a soup kitchen, she doesn't know it yet though. Its going to be great.
Things I am dreading... Well the Monday after Christmas I am going to be having 3 or 4 moles removed. One on my arm, one on my leg and one on my back. They are bothersome. I requested that they be removed. Two of them look like the Melanoma I had before it turned to Melanoma. So right now they are nothing but I don't want to sit around and wait for them to be something. The other mole, my doctor always tells me to watch. And since its on my back that is nearly impossible. So off they come. There is no messing around at this point. I have to admit that I am pretty darn unhappy about it though. It has been almost 8 years since I have has a mole removed. And from what I remember it wasn't fun. I have come to cope with fear when I know if can save my life, a lesson I have learned through all of these years of surviving cancer.
Second, I am not looking forward to my 2 1/2 year check up. I have all my CT Scans and blood test just before Christmas. Then I go see my cancer doctors the week after. I go every 6 months to the doctors. And the last trip was the big one. The doctors said if I could go two years with no since of cancer after the IL 2 treatments it is very very rare for it to ever come back. I trust them I do, but it still doesn't make me any less scared to go. Before I had made it 5 years after stage 3 and 8 years was the all clear. And it came back. Two years was such a great milestone. After that appointment it felt great. I took everyone with me, my mom, sister, fiance. It was funny because the examine room was packed. Positive thinking tells me that it will be a great appointment where all I hears is how wonderful all the test come back. But the sliver of fear eats like a termite on wood, grinding my stomach into a billion little pieces.
So, for now I am going to focus on all the good. The time with family, thanksgiving food and fun, and black Friday shopping. Love it! I just can't wait to get home, where I hear it is snowing and supposed to continue. I am about to spend 11 hours in a car so, i know you don't wish you were me. =) Happy Holidays!!!
-Kelli
Posted on 10:39 PM by Kelli
Comments
20 Nov 2007
shelley
Hey kelly! Im so glad to hear your in such great spirits and I just wanted you to know I know exactly how you feel though.Its scary no matter whats being done. I have another mole they are taking off actually dec 18th on my back that he caught during one of my visits for my arm surgery.so yea, all we can do is be positive. I will pray for you that your results are good. Have a wonderful thanksgiving and christmas!!
